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Personality Test -- 2004-01-02
 
I enjoy a good online test. Especially a personality test. This one is rather interesting. Those who know me should be able to see that it does seem to hit the mark, when it comes to describing me.

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Let us analyze the results for a moment, see if you concur. I'll deal with the ones that are not labeled low, because that's more interesting.

Schizoid - moderate. People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

It's definitely true that I am a person who genuinely prefers to be alone. I don't feel that I particularly NEED the company of others. However, I have come to like spending time with people. Not a whole lot of time. There is a point in which I feel worn down by the presence of people. Lately I've tried to be more outgoing. In that process I have become more social, not overly social though. So I think that the weakness in my social skills has waned.

Narcissistic - high. Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. People with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

I am self-cerntered, this is true. I think that I do seek praise from others, but not so much attention. However, I think that in a way I do seek attention. I seek to be seen as someone who is achieving something. I don't necessarily care what others think of me, however. As for being choosy with my friendships, I think that's true. I resently ended a friendship because I felt that the person wasn't deserving of my friendship. And they aren't. It is strange that all of the people I have considered my best friends are now no longer in my life. Maybe I do have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships.

Obsessive-Compulsive - high. Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

I think this one pegged me the best. I strive for nothing less than perfection. In my writing, in my chores, in anything I feel passionate towards. I feel that anything worth doing is worth doing right. However, this does lead to the problem that I am never happy with my work. And that does interfere with my productivity. Because I often stop what I'm doing in a middle of a project because I feel that it can be better. It can always be better. So my thinking goes. I'm trying to improve on this, by not being so harsh on my work. I am critical of others. I also find that I tend to see people as weak because they don't do what they are supposed to do. I feel that so many people want praise for doing things they are supposed to do. I do fear making mistakes, but at the same time I now feel secure enough in myself that I know that often times the best progress comes from mistakes. You can't make an omelet without breaking some eggs. If anything, I now tell myself to make a move, and live with it. Good, bad, or indifferent. It's better to make a move, than to regret it later. The one thing that I haven't worked on is expressing my emotion. I still feel that emotions are luxuries for those who don't have anything better to do but to wallow in emotions, served up as excuses for not doing something.

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