| So it’s been a couple of days now since the job thing and I’m feeling a little better. The last few hours of work Tuesday could not go fast enough for me. I simply wanted the shift to end, because I was feeling dejected. Yeah, still. How am I supposed to feel after a wonderful opportunity passes me by? Shit, the only thing I wanted to do after getting home Monday was to take a bat to something, anything, and just smash it to hell. That fucking car I drive would have been a GREAT target for my swings. I think it would be a hunk of metal by now. Today I’m feeling much better. I’ve licked my wounds and moved on. Speaking of that, I found another opening at a local library. I filled out the application and I’m going to submit it tomorrow. I have to because I’m off to San Francisco on Friday. My friend Vagabundo de Granada and I are leaving town to “reset” things. Both of us really need to get out and change things, even if it’s only for a few days. Honestly though, I’m not sure how I’m going to return to crappy Ralph’s after going to San Francisco. The last vacation I took was two years ago, and after that it was a little hard to go back to school. Still, I got over it and returned to the grind. Then again, the grind back then was a lot more fun than crappy Ralph’s. ARGH! I so need to leave that place. The B.H. library job was going to be the perfect thing to take me away from that stupid job. But I wasn’t good enough. You know, I find that I’m almost NEVER the right choice for anything or anyone. Its a rare few that have given me a chance to prove myself. I hate to say it, but even though I don’t like crappy Ralph’s I’m at least thankful that THEY hired me, since it seems no one else wants to. So in short, I’m wondering who will be the next one to take a chance on me.  End Communication. |
