Monday was apparently bitch/bastard day. Maybe itís just that EVERYONE seems to be getting stupider and stupider by the minute these days. Maybe it was because it was the first day of the week. Whatever the reason I was ready to tell everyone to go to hell today. The customers were stupider than usual, which makes them pretty damn stupid. The managers were stupid, and my co-workers were assholes. Thereís this one guy in particular that got me mad today, Leo. Let us call him Leo-bastard from now on. He saw me struggling by myself on the last machine without a bagger and he still didnít come over and help. But he did help himself to half my sandwich for his lunch.
Leo-bastard has this attitude that the world is after him, and is out to get him. Meanwhile all of us working at crappy Ralphís are struggling, even the managers. I see how customers beat up the managers every day. Sometimes I feel bad that I have to send a clearly stupid customer to a manager because I know theyíre going to get verbally beat up. Then this Leo-bastard character shows up and doesnít do his work. For some reason they are giving people fewer hours, so itís harder and harder for people to make ends meet. I wonder if itís some sort of company wide thing to prevent paying us too much, considering that we got a pay raise on the last contract. Iíve yet to see a dime of that raise though. If anything I see less money these days. Itís so damn frustrating. Then on top of that I have to deal with a dummy that doesnít want to work. He asked me if I could work for him on Friday, but fuck that shit. Heís either going to have to work or call in sick, Iím not covering his shift. Not after how he ignored me while I drowned in customers having to run the register AND bag the customerís groceries! OMG, itís a good thing I didnít care if they waited. I took my time and if someone complained about my line being slow I could just point out how Iím all by myself. Iím ALWAYS by myself.
The universe is definitely telling me that I need to ďupgradeĒ my life. Not just telling me, but literally screaming it. I was watching ďGreyís AnatomyĒ Saturday, a little mini-marathon of shows I havenít watched in a month. The main theme of one show was settling for something that isnít entirely right for you out of fear. Itís perfectly understandable that we would have that fear. Still, Iíve been trying to upgrade my job and my life for a while now and it has been a slow process. Sometimes so slow that I wonder if Iím making any strides at all. Iím probably not.