Monday was apparently bitch/bastard day. Maybe it’s just that EVERYONE seems to be getting stupider and stupider by the minute these days. Maybe it was because it was the first day of the week. Whatever the reason I was ready to tell everyone to go to hell today. The customers were stupider than usual, which makes them pretty damn stupid. The managers were stupid, and my co-workers were assholes. There’s this one guy in particular that got me mad today, Leo. Let us call him Leo-bastard from now on. He saw me struggling by myself on the last machine without a bagger and he still didn’t come over and help. But he did help himself to half my sandwich for his lunch.Leo-bastard has this attitude that the world is after him, and is out to get him. Meanwhile all of us working at crappy Ralph’s are struggling, even the managers. I see how customers beat up the managers every day. Sometimes I feel bad that I have to send a clearly stupid customer to a manager because I know they’re going to get verbally beat up. Then this Leo-bastard character shows up and doesn’t do his work. For some reason they are giving people fewer hours, so it’s harder and harder for people to make ends meet. I wonder if it’s some sort of company wide thing to prevent paying us too much, considering that we got a pay raise on the last contract. I’ve yet to see a dime of that raise though. If anything I see less money these days. It’s so damn frustrating. Then on top of that I have to deal with a dummy that doesn’t want to work. He asked me if I could work for him on Friday, but fuck that shit. He’s either going to have to work or call in sick, I’m not covering his shift. Not after how he ignored me while I drowned in customers having to run the register AND bag the customer’s groceries! OMG, it’s a good thing I didn’t care if they waited. I took my time and if someone complained about my line being slow I could just point out how I’m all by myself. I’m ALWAYS by myself.
The universe is definitely telling me that I need to “upgrade” my life. Not just telling me, but literally screaming it. I was watching “Grey’s Anatomy” Saturday, a little mini-marathon of shows I haven’t watched in a month. The main theme of one show was settling for something that isn’t entirely right for you out of fear. It’s perfectly understandable that we would have that fear. Still, I’ve been trying to upgrade my job and my life for a while now and it has been a slow process. Sometimes so slow that I wonder if I’m making any strides at all. I’m probably not.
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