It's been over two months since I last wrote an entry. I've wanted to, but then I end up doing something else, like working photos or something.Lately actual real life has gotten in the way of me taking a few minutes to jot down a few thoughts here.
The big event happened a little over two weeks ago. A woman that I've been interested in for a while now invited me out to lunch. The night ended with us consummating a new relationship. I wonder now if this thing is just a "fuck buddy" situation (to be blunt), or if it has potential for more. I think it does, but I've been burned in the past before. Matter of fact, I told myself a couple of weeks before all this happened that I was a fool for even getting involved with women. I had been on one of those dating sites looking for someone. I emailed a few woman, and was rejected each time. So I gave myself until the end of July to get a response. But then a week before the end of the month I decided to jump the gun and delete my account early. I figured that there was no use waiting that extra time. I had already tried to get something going, and had failed miserably. So, it was time to just give up once and for all. I truly gave up any hope of finding anyone. And then the Universe took "mercy" on me and sent this wonderful woman my way. We've been flirting for at least a year and a half now, but I was too afraid to make a move. Thankfully she finally made the move. Now we're... well, we're something. I still have my shields up, because I don't want to get too emotional. Having been burred in the past it's not my intention to get burned again. But, I know that if I have any change at finding happiness it has to involve me lowing my shields. Because these things demand a full commitment. And despite being burned over and over again I'm still willing to stick my neck out to be cut off. It's the only way to live. So we'll see where this goes. All I know is that I REALLY like this woman, and she likes me. Beyond that, quite frankly I'm not thinking of that right now. I’m simply enjoying this.
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