Lousy day at work, so what's new? -- 01.27.12

Work Thursday was going well until I showed some initiative and decided to deliver some books to the rest home I'm sent to once a month even though I wasn't scheduled to do so.  Why did I do this?  Because I was traveling right by the place and it would save a trip.  Also, I looked at my calendar and it looked it like it had been more than a month since I delivered books to the rest home.  Well, I paid the price for my initiative when I came back to home base.  My supervisor scolded me for making the delivery on the day it wasn't scheduled.  Big fucking deal, right?  Big enough that I could see the anger in my supervisor's face when she asked me why I had gone and made the delivery without asking her if it was OK.  But how could I ask her if it was OK if she wasn't in her office... Or anywhere to be found.  Also, I did ask one of my superiors if she knew when I had to deliver the items.  She didn't know.  So yeah, I took it upon myself to make the delivery without permission. So you know what?  From this point forward I'm really not going to care what happens at that job.  I was doing pretty good for a while there.  But today just broke my spirit when it comes to caring about that job.  I actually gave a damn.  I know, what was I thinking?  I wasn't.  I shouldn't ever care about any job.  No job is worth shit.  You go there and give them our time so they give you money in exchange... that’s IT.  A while back I stopped trying hard to please, and somehow that worked.  Somehow they actually responded to that by giving me a raise and new position.  After today I'm just there to blend in and get paid.  I fucking hate my jobs. End Communication.