American Ecstasy
Gastby believed in the green light, the orgiastic future that year by year recedes before us.
It eluded us then, but that's no matter tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther....
And one fine morning---so we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.
newest entry / american ecstasy / diaryland

+ Nearly perfect Los Angeles day +
+ Lousy day at work, so what's new? +
+ Shopping/spending spree Monday +
+ 52 Project 2012: 4/52 +
+ Beauty and The Beast Saturday +
+ 52 Project 2012: 3/52 +
+ Disneyland on Friday 13th +
+ Late night sundae, and waiting +
+ 52 Project 2012: 2/52 +
+ Tiny spot, and kettle corn +
+ Dump the TV +
+ 52 Project 2012: 1/52 +
+ 99 cent store series: 01.04.12 +
+ What I did Dec. 31st 2011 +
+ A few minutes at McDonald’s on Xmas day +
+ So, this is Xmas +
+ Recap of a near perfect day +
+ Lunch date? Not so fast +
+ You call this a recovery? +
+ Whoa, I've been sick +
+ Pointless dance +
+ Silent E +
+ Their loss +
+ Big Four-Oh +
+ Wheelhouse view +
+ Another brush with fame +
+ Solvang, take two +
+ Carmageddon weekend +
+ Meet Crocket +
+ New Car! +
+ A year since Jax +
+ Some random pictures of the week 6/19 +
+ On for good +
+ Jammed packed day +
+ Focusing on this journal +
+ All is well / LACMA +
+ In Limbo +
+ TOTALLY wasted day +
+ Thanks a lot Lakers +
+ Surly Duff = dumb waiter +
+ I’m never home anymore +
+ 28 days without a car +
+ Everything is going nuts these days +
+ A week without a car +
+ My other car is my feet +
+ Names, commercials, Balboa bars and Shamrock shakes +
+ Things to critique this week +
+ Excuse me, may I scam you +
+ A partner on this journey +
+ New year’s eve floats +
+ Revisit +
+ Since last I wrote here +
+ Back to Banality +
+ Thanksgiving at Clifton’s +
+ Fisheyes and Pet Peeves +
+ Such bullshit +
+ 10th Anniversary +
+ In need of perpetual vacation +
+ What is going on here? +
+ Debt, debt, and more debt +
+ Requited Love +
+ Back up and running +
+ Gibson’s bat, up for sale +
+ Can't sleep, so I'll rant +
+ Time to give up +
+ Still stuck, but appreciative +
+ Extremely long Monday +
+ An attempt to stay up to date (week of 10/3) +
+ Rants and Stuff on a Day Off Work +
+ Fridge Doors and Disney/Megan-land +
+ An Assessment of my Current State +
+ A day with Megan +
+ Finally, Real Life +
+ Now that the end has passed +
+ A most depressing class +
+ Bus journey to work/somewhere +
+ Big Failure +
+ Losing and Losing It +
+ Finally, a day off +
+ Slate of Dreams +
+ After meeting trip to Disneyland +
+ 13 years +
+ Griffith Park sojourn +
+ Agent of Change/Chaos +
+ Random March Entry, Stuff +
+ Not the best of days +
+ Empty Encounters +
+ First off in 2010 +
+ Lessons from 2009 +
+ Testing Theories +
+ Thanksgiving? 2009 +
+ Reciprocity: Vista Drive 2001-2009 +
+ Cloudy, with a chance of me passing out +
+ 9.11.09 +
+ Obviously not far enough +
+ Charms +
+ Real Expectations +
+ I Tried, I Really Did +
+ More Cuts +
+ No Chance +
+ Anyone out there? +
+ Hopes Down +
+ Allergic to Glendale +
+ Didn't take long +
+ Cave Dweller +
+ Winter of my Discontent +
+ Spiritual journey beings... now +
+ I gave it another chance +
+ The Terrible State of Limbo +
+ Being "Set-up" +
+ 25 Random Things +
+ Better, definitely better +
+ Ushering in 2009 +
+ Supposedly Touched by an Angel +
+ Felt so bad, now I feel Worse +
+ Blah Day +
+ Some Random Things +
+ More, More, NO MORE! +
+ My Emancipation +
+ In the Darkness on the Edge of Town +
+ It’s getting Darker +
+ Deadening Cold +
+ A Blue Bayou birthday +
+ I am not a number, I am a Free man! +
+ Existing isn’t Living +
+ Same Bat Channel +
+ A Tree Grows on Manchester +
+ Attrition Week +
+ High Definition +
+ Perspective +
+ Why everything sucks +
+ Thoughts for Thought +
+ The Days Off of Wine and Roses +
+ Like Garbo Said +
+ When the World is running down +
+ Steady as she goes +
+ La Muerte +
+ Another visit from the Angel of Death +
+ Bloom is off the Rose +
+ The Exodus +
+ The LITTLE things +
+ I would so kiss 2008 if I could +
+ Back to Work +
+ The View from West Egg +
+ ’08 is going to be Great +
+ I got a Purse +
+ Walking around Dali +
+ Random Things, Fri thru Mon +
+ I quit today +
+ I GOT THE JOB! +
+ Trapped in a Lifetime Movie +
+ No Fun in Funeral +
+ I'm Alive +
+ The Angel of Death +
+ Haven’t the Stomach for It +
+ Buses and Interviews +
+ Another Chance Perhaps +
+ Time for an Upgrade +
+ Resurrection and Recognition +
+ San Francisco +
+ Licking my Wounds +
+ Once again... Nil +
+ The Big Interview +
+ Preparing for next Tuesday +
+ It doesn't get easier +
+ Pointless once again +
+ The Universe has Spoken +
+ The Universe has Spoken +
+ Kiss it Good-bye (reset) +
+ Why not Two? +
+ Quixotic +
+ Aimlessly Falling +
+ Full Conversion +
+ Vanishing Point +
+ Encapsulated +
+ Triple Sevens +
+ Hey BIG Spender +
+ Finally, a Point +
+ What a Pointless week +
+ INTJ +
+ Suffering for Art's sake and yeah +
+ Here is where I am today +
+ Suddenly in the Abyss +
+ My Summer of Pavement +
+ It's Now Official +
+ A man without a Library +
+ Dot your I’s and Cross your T’s +
+ The Happiest Moments +
+ Replaced? Not so fast +
+ Replaced with Mediocrity rant +
+ Bottle this day, I want to keep it for later +
+ In the Dark I see the Light +
+ Aimless trip to knowing +
+ Not quite cruise control +
+ The nothing to write about entry +
+ Dulcinea thoughts +
+ You're dumb +
+ Stupid people weekend +
+ It's been two years now +
+ The last three days +
+ Another ill weekend +
+ Crumbling Plans +
+ Connect and Disconnect +
+ Worst Week of the Year, I Hope +
+ Falling Apart in 2007 +
+ The Last week of 2006 +
+ This is the Rest of Your Life +
+ Almost Done 2006 +
+ Happy Ass-hole-lery +
+ Tree today, Gone tomorrow +
+ What's the Point, at this Point? +
+ Remote, Reflective and Ready +
+ Yes, I'm alive (barely) +
+ Catching Sleep, Finding Lethargy +
+ Perchance to Sleep +
+ The Replacement Car +
+ Stupid damn Stupidity +
+ Lost my Shoes and it's Cold +
+ Info Desk = Catbird Seat? +
+ Everything just Sucks +
+ Club 33 +
+ It's a Mistake +
+ Each Other +
+ Another year another B-day +
+ Coincidence? You decide +
+ Livin' on Potstickers, but not Sleep +
+ Week one, over and done +
+ Back to School 2006 +
+ Last Days of Summer '06 +
+ A Maltese Falcon Night +
+ Definitely Miami? +
+ Everything's falling Apart +
+ Descanso +
+ Super Hero dud +
+ Down Memory Lane +
+ A Rocky Horror Night +
+ Heatwave melting me +
+ Idiot Day +
+ Tar Pits, Hockney and Mind Tricks +
+ Back in high school? +
+ Tea for Me +
+ Letterboxed +
+ Only the Lonely +
+ And a good day to you too +
+ Museum Sojourns continued +
+ Busting my Hump +
+ Sonic Scenery +
+ Conformity Factory +
+ Lacking Focus +
+ My grade is what? +
+ Waiting for Recovery +
+ Over for now +
+ Good-bye Little Voice +
+ And so it goes +
+ Trying to tell me something +
+ In need of rejuvenation +
+ Exhausted at this point +
+ Karmic slide +
+ Just pile it on +
+ Classmate sightings +
+ Long entry deluxe +
+ Good-bye and good luck +
+ Adventure du jour +
+ A day to myself, for myself +
+ These go to Eleven +
+ I'm passing out +
+ How did this happen? +
+ I was just going to say +
+ Despite all this shit... +
+ Conformity factory +
+ There's no time +
+ Don't fall for her Eric +
+ Work/Theories of Fiction suck! +
+ It's my first day +
+ Training day +
+ Click goes my brain +
+ New job, new start, new drive +
+ Rainy day dream away +
+ Best moment of the week +
+ It's... it's... Tuesday +
+ The Lost Semester +
+ Sleepiness and idiocy +
+ Superbowl Sunday '06 +
+ The longest day +
+ A Year later +
+ I'm on my way +
+ "World's First Sports Utility Vacuum" +
+ In and about altered states +
+ This Eric's way +
+ A walk around the past +
+ Throwing away the old +
+ You have to KNOW +
+ A little bit of everything +
+ Foot in mouth +
+ Embrace IT +
+ Nearing the end +
+ Yes, you too can be Spidey +
+ Periodically drifting into slumber +
+ Too much television to watch +
+ Where's the buffet? +
+ The tale of Eric the hermit +
+ So it starts once again +
+ Twilight +
+ Everyone's a Captain Kirk +
+ Gonna be a while? Grab an Eric +
+ The End of Monday Night +
+ And to all a good night +
+ A bustle in your hedgerow +
+ You deserve your Eric today +
+ To the Getty alone +
+ It MUST be perfect +
+ Hush hush... voices carry +
+ It's like I told you... +
+ Come fly the friendly Eric +
+ Cluttered desk/mind +
+ From sad to PISSED +
+ Fall semester final comments +
+ Bourgeois decadence +
+ The answer is...? +
+ Where is my head? +
+ End of the Fall semester '05 +
+ Exhausted, but in a good way +
+ Such a bad entry +
+ Continuation on a theme +
+ Pig today, Gone tomorrow +
+ Silly sentimentality +
+ Pure Eric +
+ Pre-ordained futility? +
+ Out of Town +
+ Apathy Works Wonders +
+ Hitting bottom saves your soul +
+ BIG chocolate craving +
+ Sports Sunday rant +
+ Because Loser is complicated enough +
+ Catch me now I'm misfiting +
+ Harrowing night +
+ List of things +
+ Photo assignment Saturday +
+ Putting Things on top of Other Things +
+ Back in Junior College?! +
+ Ghosts, glorified pamphlets, & Calvin and Hobbes +
+ Value +
+ Degeneracy of others +
+ Flashback Sunday +
+ No talking +
+ School days indeed +
+ Prodigal son +
+ Need for a change +
+ "Lost" weekend +
+ Starting early +
+ Dollar menu living +
+ Giant hotdog giveaway +
+ Photo class assignment +
+ University life +
+ School Orientation +
+ Library tripping +
+ No talking for now +
+ Getty Center pictures +
+ 90% Excited +
+ Old Pasadena +
+ When it rains.... +
+ To: Margaret Farquhar 7.16.05 +
+ I Miss Her +
+ King Tut, and crying while Eating +
+ Crash Boom +
+ Cooler than Episode III +
+ Q&A +
+ Why even bother with it? +
+ Calvin & Hobbes +
+ I'm done, I'm leaving +
+ Moving things around +
+ Quick cold +
+ Austere living is better Living +
+ Big feeling of Failure +
+ Unincumbered +
+ Day Trip Lessons +
+ Transition +
+ Food and Fool +
+ Online Pet Peeves +
+ Self-doubt Tuesday +
+ I got things done today +
+ Now you have it, now you don't +
+ iPod songs, Food sucks, getting out +
+ No other Place but Here +
+ Colorful shirts +
+ Not attached as much +
+ First visit +
+ Missing +
+ So far this Week +
+ A Great Loss +
+ Emotionally Drained +
+ Progress and an Instant Rapport +
+ Hoping +
+ X-mas eve? +
+ Mixed bag +
+ What's next? +
+ Getting better, hopefully +
+ Sick +
+ Done with the tree, and X-mas shopping +
+ "What I want/need" List +
+ Get that tree up... Eventually +
+ Don't blame me +
+ Don't care Anymore +
+ If George Bush wins +
+ Night Owl +
+ Sicky getting well +
+ Seasonal blahs +
+ Zombie day +
+ Utility belt for My 33rd +
+ Three years later +
+ Never close +
+ That's the Tooth +
+ Shopping Spree +
+ Missing it already, Again +
+ Approve, disapprove +
+ Lazy weekend +
+ Utility Belts and "Friends" +
+ Lost Causes +
+ Teacher Suck-ups, Pets, and the Lakers +
+ Reluctant Entry +
+ Tiny Coke can memories +
+ Backyard Battleground / Former Friend +
+ Phone Messages +
+ Things I Dread +
+ New Era +
+ Harsh Realities +
+ Anti-social +
+ Not Going To Take It Anymore! +
+ Lunch Tray Nostalgia +
+ 200 and Counting +
+ Crowded equals Claustrophobic +
+ Apprehension and Absolution +
+ Tracking a Radio +
+ Detours and Stoplights +
+ Food for Thought +
+ Click, waiting for a Click +
+ Northridge earthquake, 10 years later +
+ Buck Up Time +
+ Little things going Wrong +
+ Personality Test +
+ More this semester's Poetry +
+ This semester's Poetry +
+ You can't Rely on Anyone +
+ The Better to not get Hurt +
+ Loss +
+ Return and Redemption +
+ Bridges Burned, and Crossed +
+ Two years later +
+ Bottles Bottled Up +
+ Fleeting Hope, and Fleeting Friendship +
+ Without a want to Pursue +
+ Bring on the World, Right now It Would Lose +
+ You ever Feel, Trapped? +
+ First Correspondence to one Margaret Farquhar +
+ For all its Trials, Life is Splendid +
+ Preparations for the Inevitable, Eternal Solitude +
+ The Quest to find Her +
+ Way of life of the famous Knight, Don Gomez del Valle +
+ Penciled in +
+ Nice weekend +
+ Messed up week (Dammit!) +
+ Pop goes the corn +
+ Decisions, decisions +
+ New shoes, new game, I quit +
+ Free +
+ Loud +
+ Late night snack +
+ After Christmas +
+ Don't need anything +
+ Tired of this shit +
+ Perfectly sad +
+ Doubts +
+ 27 down in the 4th +
+ From now on +
+ Pains and joys +
+ Thanksgiving, what's that? +
+ À la peanut butter sandwiches +
+ New, bright, way cool, monitor +
+ Everything sucks! +
+ Remodeling +
+ New and old +
+ Sometimes it's better.... +
+ Fireworks / No Fireworks +
+ Miss-ing the point +
+ This is an entry? +
+ One year later +
+ First week back +
+ Middle of the month update +
+ Chick, I'll miss you +
+ Sad news about Chick Hearn +
+ Letting go +
+ Nature takes its course +
+ I'm cursed +
+ Pathetic +
+ Vanilla dreams +
+ Again with this religious crap! +
+ Count only on yourself +
+ Strange days indeed +
+ Ah memories +
+ Things that happened June 12th +
+ Yeah, but I'll miss it +
+ Benny Hill, episode 2, and 127 IQ +
+ The blessed rain +
+ Righting wrongs +
+ Disappointments +
+ Thoughts of Kat +
+ Hamburger Cravings +
+ And I Wonder +
+ An entry with no name +
+ Chicky Baby is Back! +
+ The Long and Winding Road +
+ Lost, completely lost +
+ Out with the old +
+ Off kilter +
+ 'Slightly Off' Day +
+ Realizations +
+ A bunch of subjects +
+ It's off! +
+ One step back +
+ Valentine's day stuff +
+ My Kingdom for 66¢ +
+ 99¢ day +
+ Wishing doesn't work +
+ Out of Wack +
+ Various goings on +
+ Good and plenty bad +
+ Various things +
+ What a frustrating world +
+ Dead Bird +
+ Don't look down +
+ Happy, happy, joy, joy +
+ A hungry belly & a busted TV +
+ Holy Smurfing Smurf! +
+ Foggy days and Mondays.... +
+ Hair today, more tomorrow +
+ Food for thought +
+ Thoughts, random as they are.... +
+ Off to bed +
+ The stupid things I do +
+ No fear +
+ Totally fucked up! +
+ Trying to get back to normal +
+ Late night +
+ The Big "3-Oh!" +
+ Proud to be an American +
+ Shopping sucks! +
+ Ah, sweet satisfaction +
+ I should get away +
+ A pain in the hand +
+ Stupid ol' Eric +
+ Why don't I just pretend? +
+ Waiting for the lady of Shalott +
+ September morn +
+ I am melting, and that ain't good +
+ No more food, please! +
+ Butterflies +
+ Before I lay me down to sleep +
+ Let there be photos +
+ So tired right now +
+ Between the sheets +
+ My old friend Coca-Cola +
+ Quick, breakfast is ready +
+ Start anew +
+ No more sticking my neck out +
+ Apropos +
+ The Good, the Bad and the Indifferent +
+ Is cuddling manly? +
+ Getting ready +
+ Doomed and logical +
+ Pent-up +
+ Come on, read this thing +
+ It's just a little crush +
+ Memory Lane +
+ Friday the 13th, bad luck? Nah +
+ Back to the past, and onward towards the future +
+ Flowing +
+ Can't take the heat +
+ Moving ahead +
+ Hot as hell! +
+ Joking around +
+ Another day in paradise +
+ Mental block +
+ Here we go again +
+ More of the same shit +
+ Still confused +
+ The Wonder Years +
+ Who, what, where and why +
+ She walks in beauty? +
+ Whenever +
+ The answer is blowing in the wind +
+ Hate is not strong enough +
+ Anne's thigh +
+ confused as hell +
+ I wonder, why, why, why, why, why.... +
+ But it did +
+ Trivial events +
+ Can't let go +
+ I've got dreams to remember +
+ My so-called sucky life +
+ I need a shower +
+ Feline motives +
+ Truly something +
+ Not trying +
+ Chugging along +
+ Better days +
+ Another bad day +
+ Finding it within myself +
+ learning from mistakes +
+ Trust is hard to come by +
+ Onward +
+ !ARGH! +
+ No one to talk to +
+ Feeling something +
+ Shave and a face lift, two bits +
+ Not a great day +
+ Feeling blue, and green and red +
+ What a guy wants +
+ 2001 +
+ Taking Stock +
+ Allowances +
+ Dealing with it +
+ Taking Chances +
+ Creative juices +
+ Kneading +
+ leg bounce +
+ Old and new +
+ But me no butts +
+ Thinking of Heather +
+ Hi Diary +
newest entry / american ecstasy / diaryland